Someone asked me recently how many years I had been writing this column.
I said, “Perhaps five or so.”
Actually it has been eight years. Once a week. That’s 410 or so columns.
As my eighth year ends, I wondered whether anything I had written made any difference at all.
The answer? Not really.
My first column was carefully edited by Mark Woodward. He was the executive editor, an experienced editorial writer and columnist.
I’m pretty sure he was not optimistic, and for good reason. I had been reporting for 20 some-odd years, and reporting and writing columns are very different.
I was as unsure as he was.
My first column dealt with a 22-year-old local man who had tried three times in three weeks to jump off the roof of the former Bagel Shop at the corner of Main and Hammond streets.
Granted, it was only a three-story building, but there are no real high rises in downtown Bangor and the old Bagel Shop building afforded easy outside access to the roof.
He never actually jumped, but his attempts shut down Main Street for a while and called upon a lot of police and fire resources.
Each time, this mentally disturbed young man was taken to the hospital and evaluated, was refused admittance and taken to jail for lack of any other place to take him.
After the last attempt the doctor who examined him wrote on his evaluation sheet, “You are suicidal and you are under arrest.” The evaluator told police to caution jail administrators to place him on “extreme” suicide watch.
Back then, county jails in Maine and across the country were housing more of the nation’s mentally ill than any psychiatric hospital.
That was in 2004. Today? No change, and with more cuts to the Department of Health and Human Services, the struggles of those suffering with mental illness and their families could worsen.
In 2005 I wrote about friends who lost their young adult son to a drug overdose as the opiate crisis threatened to devastate the lives of too many families in the area.
Since then it has gotten worse.
Maine has the worse prescription drug abuse problem in the country. Today record numbers of people are dying in Maine of drug overdoses, more than in motor vehicle accidents.
That same year I wrote about the new phenomenon of opiate-addicted babies being born at Eastern Maine Medical Center. It was big news. Shocking, really.
Today, it is not. It is expected and sadly, it seems, accepted.
In 2005 I wrote a column about the dire need of local food banks.
Probably I don’t need to expound on that.
In 2005 I wrote about concerns about drug use, litter and bad behavior in Pickering Square in Bangor.
Hmmm.
In 2006 I reminded readers that still no one had been charged with the 1995 death of 8-month-old Aisha Dickson. Every bone in her body was broken while she was in a Bangor apartment, where she lived with her parents and her grandmother.
No change in that case. The parents and her grandmother have all moved on.
That same year I wrote that the Maine State Police’s Computer Crimes Unit was overwhelmed and buried with child pornography cases. So many cases they could not begin to keep up.
Today that troubling story remains the same.
I wrote about the lack of sufficient funding for the Maine Drug Enforcement Agency, vague gun laws that were not understood or enforced, the deterioration of the neighborhood on Webster Avenue North and the troubling fact that Bangor High School administrators refused to allow their students to participate in the state’s most comprehensive teen drug survey.
It’s the time of year for reflection. Time to ponder what has changed and what should change.
Reviewing those eight years of columns I’ve come to realize that so many things haven’t changed at all.
So perhaps the wish for the new year should be that this be the time when we as citizens, town officials and government leaders actually effect change — make progress.
If not, I wonder whether I could simply resubmit those archived columns and take the next eight years off.



Maybe you should quit…
PLEASE!!!!!!!
Keep writing, it’s worth the effort.
I think people can write columns with the hope that things might change, but not the expectation that they will. All good columns plant seeds that may take years to begin to sprout.
Rather depressing isn’t it Renee, that things have not seemed to improve? All you can do is keep plugging along.
Yesterday I cleared the driveway of snow. Today I did it again. Maybe tomorrow I won’t have to.
Things haven’t changed because nobody reads this worthless rag of a paper.
Bless you for continually writing comments about stories you have not read.
I was interviewed in August by Renee on the subject of Domestic Violence Homicide as part of another subject discussion related to a death that was either a suicide or a homicide, but for which no prosecutorial or law enforcement action/change has occurred to ensure that the actions of that deceased individual never occur again. Nonetheless, something great has occurred in Maine during 2012 and that is that only…and not even these should have occurred…3 people have died as the result of Domestic Viuolence Homicide. That is compared to 11 during 2011. So my view for Renee is to keep writing on these very important subjects despite the fact that certain individuals will always believe in either slow or no progress. They will eventually thin themselves out. And as they do that, they will continually wish that the rest of us would just not care/talk/do something about crucial subjects that need caring/talking/doing about.
You never know who you will influence by the power of the written word. You have been making the community aware of problems and the fact that things haven’t changed doesn’t reflect poorly on you. It reflects poorly on the politicians and administrators and others whose duty it is to promote change for the better.
What I find noteworthy is that we have, on a legislative level, deployed countless expensive programs to deal with these recurring issues. Few, if any, have borne any fruit. Yet we continue to hurl money at them (and in the process hurl ourselves over a cliff of debt) hoping that the more we throw the better things will get. What’s more is the number of sensible, objective and bi-partisan of practical solutions to many of our ills that have been proposed by outsiders and completely ignored by the body politic. Health care reform comes to mind, amoungst others.
You HAVE made a difference, Renee, bringing things into the light that others choose to ignore. Some articles have been controversial, and you have paid the price by being criticized or spoken of as being naive. Our world needs people like you who have the courage to stand up and be counted; especially when it isn’t popular. Thank you for giving of yourself and, please, don’t get cynical. We need you; I need you. :)
Only 8 years? I coulda’ sworn…..
The changes you make you probably can’t see. You have changed my mind about several issues over the years.
The Aisha Dickson case and your column made me retreat from my dependence on government agencies as default child protector. Seems to me you did another on Logan Marr… maybe that was someone else in the same space.
I admit I would like to see columns more “Barniclesque” where some slug gets a stinging rebuke for his waste fraud and/or abuse. Someone needs to tear the lid off the stinking trash can where Maine puts her unwanted children. Some columnist should carve the trucking industry a new one for the damage they do to the public highways. and it wouldn’t be bad to hear occasionally that Maine for all its faults is a pretty nice place to live.
I liked Mark Woodward, and I miss him. The paper hasn’t been the same since he left. Do you remember Marshall Stone? I liked him too!
Then you are truly a very gullible person. This writer really has nothing to add about any topic, and adds nothing to an intellegent conversation. How she continues to get paid to write for any newspaper (even one this bad) is beyond me. But, if she impresses people such as yourself, perhaps she sells some papers… I guess.
Take heart Renee – 2012 was actually a year that brought a lot of changes to Bangor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Zriz87QKeI
The more things change, the more they stay the same…
Yours is not necessarily to make a difference (although I think you do) but maybe to inform us of the changes that may need to take place. George Bailey thought he didn’t make a difference either. I submit to you Renee that indeed you do. You have no idea who reads your columns and changes lives because of it. Thanks renee.
How about defining what the solution is? How about ripple effects? If my writing has a positive impact on one person then it’s worth my time and effort.
THE STATE OF MAINE WILL NEVER CHANGE, THIS IS A STATE OF DEPRESSION,
Not only do you yell and lie, you expose your pathetic life for all to see…. and judge. You must not live in My Maine.
RENEE SIT BACK AND JUST WATCH IT GO TO HELL,THAT IS THE WAY MAINE WANTS IT
THE ONLY THINGS CHANGE IN MAINE IS THE DATES ON THE CALENDER
Maybe you should leave the morbid behind and look for things more cheerful. Better to spread happiness, it lightens the heart.
The beauty of the Electronic Village is that it helps shape public opinion. Keep on writing!
Really.. seeking such lofty praise and accolades for ones self is always the goal of the far left liberal media. Get a real job and maybe you will feel better about yourself and finally contribute something useful to society you hack writer!!!!!
Keep up the fight Renee. I think that you have far more influence than you perhaps realize. Personally I think that your columns are steadily improving and that their content is more measured, thoughtful, and less blame-assigning than in years past. There is no other journalist discussing contentious social issues anywhere in this area and we’ve all rapidly become used to things like child molesters being protected by police and community leaders, or decayed, run-down neighborhoods and drunk/stoned people wandering around everywhere. It’s important that persons in your position call our collective attention to such issues. I, for one, value and respect your work and look forward to your columns. It’s not your fault that our leaders nearly always fail to lead. But it’s nice to see someone at least try to hold them accountable.
You do make a difference hun, keep writing! My husband and I enjoy your writing!
Oh but look at all you have promoted. SSM, abortion and playboy magazine along with any Democrat candidate. Yet you wonder where we have gone wrong. You truly would be the most liberal person at the dinner table. May this new year bring some much needed awakening.